I've decided. Since I have 0 motivation to do anything positive with my life, I will cut out some extra curricular activities that hinder my drive. And as for school, I've lately been revisiting my childhood dream of becoming a pilot. I wanted to be a fighter pilot when I was younger.... yeah, no thanks. I would LOVE to be a pilot for private jets. But just like any other sweet-ass job, that doesn't happen over night. I'm off to do some googling and possibly phone chatting to get to the bottom of this.

There's a new genre of music called Trap. I feel like I'm getting old...

http://www.urbandictionary.com/define.php?term=trap+music

I'm in desperate need of letting everything go and evolving. As much as I enjoy my vices, I let them control too much of who I am and what kind of person I've become. Everything feels real, but the days just seem to stay the same. I keep going out to see the same faces to do the same shit at the same time of day during the same time of week. I feel like I've been doing this for 6 or so years now... and it hasn't really gotten me anywhere. I just realized @ the time spent. Wow. The time to live is now and I'm just sitting here.

On Tourage

I gotta friend who makes me feel pre10tious.

Do not seek to follow in the footsteps of the men of old; seek what they sought.

—Basho

I just found this quote online. I was trying to find the origin of the quote "Good things happen over time, but great things happen all at once", but was unsuccessful.  Instead I found the quote above (along with many other great quotes)...

enjoi

Wisdom Quotes

"Even if you’re on the right track, you’ll get run over if you just sit there." —Will Rogers

“The richest man is not he who has the most, but he who needs the least.” —Unknown Author

"Watch your thoughts; they become words. 

Watch your words; they become actions.
Watch your actions; they become habits.
Watch your habits; they become character.
Watch your character; it becomes your destiny."

—Lao-Tze

super fun cowboy usa

u kno that crush feeling? yeah, i've got it. bad.

Work

Trying out a new cam app for the droid. I kinda love it.

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A nice day

Finally, a nice saturday for a drive. It's been a while since i've been able to enjoy a day like this on a weekend.

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A different view

I like the view from my new home.

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Lol... Are those...?

Lines.

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Dust it off. Fuck it all

Last time I wrote something on here, was in the summer of 2010. Hot damn. The cold has been getting colder, and I'm not referring to the weather here. I've realized my time for being nice is over. Long gone. It gets easily  confused for weakness.

fuck it

i'm fuckin tired. of everything. i feel like i'm being weird to friends. and by weird, i mean a dick. why am i dick to my friends? i have no fucking clue. i hate my fucking job. i'm not fond of anything atm. i hate having my alone time b/c it's lonely. i don't know. the previous sentence has been uttered too many times by me. and i wanna stop. b/c i do know. i just don't wanna face it. and this is nothing to take serious. i'm just having my brain fart all over this keyboard. i mean it's possible to be a bit serious. but not to where it's questionable. i just need to get out of this funk. how the fuck did the ceo of my workplace get to his position? greed. well... that was easy. huh... i need to stop being at this job. i feel like it's eating away at myself. this isn't me. fucking seriously? how did i get shit on this bad? oh wait, i know this one too. not fucking standing up for myself. again. when will i learn? eh, when i feel like i'm adequate and have something to offer. but i am and i do! i just need to... get with it.

Sometimes

Sometimes Life is hectic. annoying. stressful. depressing. dumb.

And then it throws a curve ball. Just to give you a break.

It's always nice. But you have to remember. It just loves throwing fast balls at you. That curve you get every now and then, 

Post-effect

friends, nature, music.
But it felt so perfect. Yes sir.
So, the cold is back.
Because of...life?

Write out loud.

So it's arrived. My last night in California. I've had a lot of fun hangin out with friends, seeing Los Angeles, and making a new friend. Vadim is a very cool guy. And his name looks a lot like Vader! Awesome.

I'm rolling now. The iPods (autospell haha) keyboard has a few different layers. It's awesome. Tonight was such a great closer to nights. Great feelings, mind-blowing music & a rekindling of friendship & life.

Hip Hip! HOORAY!

Woo!
Studio City, in Los Angeles, California is nice from what I can tell.  I've been living here with my very good friends for the past few days.  I like it so much here. Although it's not as warm as I would have imagined it, it is still a very nice location.  I'm sitting in my friend's apartment right now. And it still doesn't feel like this is happening.  Sitting in his carpeted living room, only 3 feet from the fireplace and with a 20' ceiling over my head.  To my right is my very good friend, Anna, playing flOw . It's almost 8:30PM here and we're waiting for our awesome host to get home from work.  This guy is something else. He's doing great and living life. It's refreshing to see someone realize their potential and doing something with it. 

So, I'm on vacation here.  My 1 week of vacation time that I have been allotted from my work place, I decided to finally come out here. This was my little gift to myself. I was pretty bummed that my other very close friend was unable to come out with us. Oh well, everything happens for a reason.

This vacation time was something that I've needed for a long time - a change of scenery.  I am set on moving out here. The goal: Summer 2011.

What sucks about this is, family and friends on the east coast.  More so because my family has gained a member in the last three weeks.  And it will suck to be away from family right now.  But, at some point, we all have to live our lives.

California Love

Alright so here's the deal. I'm in a jet on my way to California. Yeah! I've been wanting to go to this state for many years. Ever since it's been described to me. So once you're able to read this entry, it means I've found a safe wifi spot. And I haven't forgotten to hit the update button.

It's me. And my asshole friend, or swillusion, goin to visit jeehad in the greater Los Angeles area. We are excited as fuck! AND we are only 1 hour into our flight. Only 5 more to go. But you know what? Aside from the absurd amount of turbulence we've been riding through, it hasn't been bad. We've been planning this trip since mid march and now it's finally happening. Wowzers on bowser. Bitch. :thrust:



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So I'm pretty much in thr middle of nowhere... In northern nj. So although not that far from civilization, just far enough from my bed.

What the hell am I doing? I hAve ideas. I need the space. Also I'm drunk and these are making sense to me. And I'm way too lazy to type something meaningless.

Life is throwin' shapes at me. LOL.

I'm not really sure what I want to do now. Or where to do it. My brother's in another state as well as most of my family. I need to just stop waisting time.

Drain the battery

This is the newest member in my family: Jadiel. Born May 21 (1 week old!) at 9lbs 12 oz. This kid is gonna be an ox. Speaking of ox, my roommate, Scott, ate some ox tail last night. Strange... Don't know If that's something I would try. Seriously, twitter.com/OMGtheykilledme. Microblogging is easier.

Wow I'm pretty beat. Goin to California in a week!!! I'm so freaking excited to finally be goi g. This is a trip I've been speaking to a good friend of mine since 2003. 7 years, and since then we've graduated high school. Went an alternate paths. And Now I'm really excited to hear that he's doing well. Going with my illusion of a friend so this is sure to be an exciting trip. And trio. XD

Be on the lookout for a new site at RumbaConSon.com. XD


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I will try to post an update later in the day. My hands resemble those of a blue collar man. I'll be cleaning out my car today. My cousin is due with her bouncing baby son any day now. People my age are getting married now. That's scary. I really gotta work on getting a degree. But not everyone needs it to be successful. More later...