I've decided. Since I have 0 motivation to do anything positive with my life, I will cut out some extra curricular activities that hinder my drive. And as for school, I've lately been revisiting my childhood dream of becoming a pilot. I wanted to be a fighter pilot when I was younger.... yeah, no thanks. I would LOVE to be a pilot for private jets. But just like any other sweet-ass job, that doesn't happen over night. I'm off to do some googling and possibly phone chatting to get to the bottom of this.

There's a new genre of music called Trap. I feel like I'm getting old...

http://www.urbandictionary.com/define.php?term=trap+music

I'm in desperate need of letting everything go and evolving. As much as I enjoy my vices, I let them control too much of who I am and what kind of person I've become. Everything feels real, but the days just seem to stay the same. I keep going out to see the same faces to do the same shit at the same time of day during the same time of week. I feel like I've been doing this for 6 or so years now... and it hasn't really gotten me anywhere. I just realized @ the time spent. Wow. The time to live is now and I'm just sitting here.