I'm in desperate need of letting everything go and evolving. As much as I enjoy my vices, I let them control too much of who I am and what kind of person I've become. Everything feels real, but the days just seem to stay the same. I keep going out to see the same faces to do the same shit at the same time of day during the same time of week. I feel like I've been doing this for 6 or so years now... and it hasn't really gotten me anywhere. I just realized @ the time spent. Wow. The time to live is now and I'm just sitting here.